crazy

i told my mom,that we broke....
then her action really.........i know you want to protect me,want to help us.
but mom,you couldn't knwo what situation we having nw,and yes i also not really know that....
i already asked for reunite but he don't want...
actually my mom's action really funny,and yes,i smile...
today,i called him,i heard his sound and felt secure. and yes,i'm smiling and tearing.
i lie to my mother....the problems is on me,because i don't wanna she have a bad looking on you and do not disturb you.
i wanna say to you,mom....
but lets me and him settle,okay....?
i don't wanna talk because i don't wanna recall the pain.
anywhere,i'm okay....
this few days,i'm really weak..and i can't cope.
breakdown myself.

my mom really messed up me now...i dunno i want to say thanks or angry...
sighs....walao,i beh tahan you now...
keep nagging me,many things that you couldn't know lar,aunty...
pissed on you now,really pek cik...