When life meet with a GIRL

i wish he not the guy that they description. i wish he not the guy who is sweet talk to everyone. i wish i misunderstanding.... i wish to trust you....but i'm afraid i become the fool... i wish you're not betray me,always do loyal . i wish he is the guy who always give compliment on him(he is loyal boy). i wish you're the good guy that i know since the day we met. why do i care and talk so much?dunno..... 2011 is coming soon,say hi to 2011. happy new year,don't worry,everything is alright,xinyng. if you're crying,wipe your tears and telling to yourself,never mind... let it be the past or a sweet dreams,and always do remember :) since the day i been abandoned ,the dream maker was stop building. So,pls slap me and tell me is time to wake up.the dreams is over... yes,i'm awake but my heart still in 'sleeping'... BE STRONG,cheah xin ying....  :) smile to everyone and smile to 2011.

28 days Move on and move on,time will not waiting for me or freeze up. i need how long time to puzzle back my mood. everyday is a sadness day for me,my mood is not sunny like sunshine,always in a moody mood. so how?what can i do?i do nothing!this is my final answer,i'm trying harder but failure. i can't erase,because it is too many although around four months,a short-term relationship. i took seriously in this relationship,and i never imagined that we will end like this. i trusted him,so i expected a long-term for us.expecting means disappointing. It was a very fool and naive thinking.i laughed at myself with my tears. i swear to myself,i not to in relationship.i'm tired enough and got no strength to in love again. Love is hard. i realised what i did,it was a foolish things,and my mind appeared " not to treat good in others,because they will not treasure".yes,i feel unfair,i want to appeal >.<.sometime i love you,sometime i feel unfair,i hate....

elva-错的人lyrics 明知道愛情並不牢靠 但是我還是拼命往裡跳 明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬 朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑 但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃 在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真正的可笑 愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪 太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕 我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但是我還奮不顧身 明知道愛情並不牢靠 但是我還是拼命往裡跳 明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬 朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑 但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃 在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真的真正的可笑 愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪 太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕 我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但是我還奮不顧身 可能 在愛裡面這樣算笨 可能 永遠沒有所謂永恆 但是我 不願放棄這裡面一點點可能 寧願笨也不想要悔恨 愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲 太容易讓自己沉淪 太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕 我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但我還是奮不顧身 我太笨 明知道你是錯的人 明知道這不是緣分 但我相信有點可能 Why do i still care? ya,i never told you,i never told you.i miss you. i miss you badly... i love you badly... i can't let go bt keep telling myself.nvm,is okay... i lift you up and you knock me down..(love this song) yes,we do.....we're friend forever and ever. xinying,pls lift up yourself and smile. no one is coming to help you. love in silence. i wanna know but i don't wanna ask....

Met him two times in a day.. hmmmm,get shock when i saw him, but yes,we do,we're friend..

因为得知某些消息，我顿时发觉生命很脆弱。 领悟了。 说走就走，一去不回头。 这一种的失去，是不一样的感觉，不是留学，不是移民，而是往生了。 我们不能向她说再见，而是说永别。 我们不能再见了。 昨晚到了您的funeral,看了你，最后一面。 你的样子几乎变了，你眼睛是闭关着。 当我靠近你的安详之屋时，我停顿了一下。 我不能想象我的朋友居然..... 眼泪在眼睛里打滚，是一种百感交集的感觉。 生命像是什么呢？谁能预知这一切？ 我突然感到而外的担忧，我害怕失去。 时间到了，生命就会消失。 对，往生等于消失。 有多少的遗憾，有多少的话，多少的欢笑，再也听不见看不到做不到摸不透。 一路走好，我的朋友。 我们应该好好珍惜相处的时间，我不知道那天又得知某人进入安详之家。 我不想知道，也不想去面对。 这种失去比爱情里的失去痛多几百倍。 爱情里的失去 人还在人间，有缘在想见。 生命里的失去 机会只有一次，失去了就等于消失了，无法补救。 我整晚没好好入睡过 昨晚到家，我觉得自己很累，十一点多就睡了，但却万万不能入眠。 这种感觉很难受，有你的中影，也有你的，也有他的。 很多的事物在我脑袋里徘徊。但是我心里却是很困，我真的累了。 四点钟我把自己的眼睛睁开了，再也睡不下去。我强调我真的很累。 某些事让我心里楸了一下，这也是必然的事，因为我并没那么潇洒。 但我知道我有一个很好的借口告诉我自己，那就是我已经不再是你的另一半。 虽然很好用，但语言永远控制不了感觉，所以需要部落格。 疗伤万万离不开时间。 有机会希望我们能磨去伤痛的回忆，留下美好的一切，也成为朋友。 imh,do he? forgiven,i always do and learning now. take care. :)

Bruno Mars Just The Way You Are Oh her eyes, her eyes Make the stars look like they're not shining Her hair, her hair Falls perfectly without her trying She's so beautiful And I tell her every day Yeah I know, I know When I compliment her She wont believe me And its so, its so Sad to think she don't see what I see But every time she asks me do I look okay I say When I see your face There's not a thing that I would change Cause you're amazing Just the way you are And when you smile, The whole world stops and stares for awhile Cause girl you're amazing Just the way you are Her nails, her nails I could kiss them all day if she'd let me Her laugh, her laugh She hates but I think its so sexy She's so beautiful And I tell her every day Oh you know, you know, you know Id never ask you to change If perfect is what you're searching for Then just stay the same So don't even bother asking If you look okay You know I s

misunderstanding for each other. your heart changed,fast than everythings. why i told badly to you,i was just refer with you. and yes,i'm angry... xinyng,cheer. do not let the things bring you down again.

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接受不到我们分开了。 很辛苦也很难受。 天天都放空，不知道自己在搞什么。 心情更不稳定，突然没事突然伤心，笑不起来。 谢馨莹再一次崩溃，很严重地崩了。 静静地，不说话，头脑永远都是他，我想念他。 今天已经分开十四天了，他的语言真的很伤。 请问有为我想想吗？你很过分，我很生气。但是一天后却消了。 我发觉你分了以后，没烦恼了，分开是对的。因为分开你开心了。 因为这样我好像有点放开了，原来跟我一起是那么辛苦。 你开心我应该开心，这叫爱吧？不晓得！ 愿你找到你的soulmate. 虽然心是痛但....你开心就好。 希望依然是朋友。 想与你分享与你一块到那，但是不可能啦。 那里很舒服，有无敌夜景，你会喜欢那，也可以跳舞。 我记得你对我说的每句话我依然记得。 就算成了回忆那又怎样。

Today is 09122010.

you killed me this morning. 你狠狠击了我一掌。 你好像不懂我快要给你伤死了。 T.T 为什么你那么狠心的对我？ 我到底做错了什么？

xinying couldn't understand why the relationship ended up with this? WHY?????how did he said those hurtful words to her?he got no feelings? her emotion is always unstable now,cry,smile,upset,moody,pek cik... who will bring her out in this grief,this condition.... she felt that painful in her heart that she never facing before.she always breakdown herself. she think that he too calm until he not to turn back anymore.xinying is giving up. He told her that not the truth,he will not finding back,and that not truth. xinying laughing at herself,cos she think she is a foolish to believe him and hoping always. it that hurt????yes,it was very hurt,when i saw that message,tearing and smiling... it was.............i got nothing feelings but my tears.....were falling down. the tears is saltly.. when xinying told him,xinying miss him,but he told her,pls stop missing me. she is waiting and waiting,when he told her this,she felt he is cruel,he hurt directly to her... he killed xinyin

馨莹很辛苦。馨莹真的很辛苦。 馨莹很难受。

妈，你这样的行为搞得我更痛，难道我不想在回一起吗？但是你知道我什么方都试过了吗？你知道他说他不喜欢我了吗？我知道你很想帮我们。但是我们是没机会一起了，他都不想和我一起，你又能怎样？为什么不说过了就算？还要一直把我们拉起来？为什么？你知道我很难受我很痛？我是多么想他，谁了解？我崩溃了。我不想分开！！！我却不能怎样，我应该等吗？哭不出来的感觉很难受。

i told my mom,that we broke.... then her action really.........i know you want to protect me,want to help us. but mom,you couldn't knwo what situation we having nw,and yes i also not really know that.... i already asked for reunite but he don't want... actually my mom's action really funny,and yes,i smile... today,i called him,i heard his sound and felt secure. and yes,i'm smiling and tearing. i lie to my mother....the problems is on me,because i don't wanna she have a bad looking on you and do not disturb you. i wanna say to you,mom.... but lets me and him settle,okay....? i don't wanna talk because i don't wanna recall the pain. anywhere,i'm okay.... this few days,i'm really weak..and i can't cope. breakdown myself. my mom really messed up me now...i dunno i want to say thanks or angry... sighs....walao,i beh tahan you now... keep nagging me,many things that you couldn't know lar,aunty... pissed on you now,really pek cik...

分手的原因远远离不开感觉，对，他对我没感觉了。 他对我失去感觉了。 而且我感觉到他有喜欢的人了。 我是时候quit了,一切所做的都是白费的。 没感觉就是没感觉。 我了解，我不再渴望你的回来。 我们分手了，我们已经分开几天了。 哭，就由我自己承担吧。 天真的我本以为我们会很长久。 原来这一切都是错的。 我没那个能力让你爱上我。 希望明天会更好。 我一直认为我们会有以后，不懂从那天起我知道你就不这样认为了。 本来过得好好地一段感情，突然，非常突然，没了。 要我怎样去面对？？？？ 谢谢你来看我，但是我………… 我又痛了，这一次连我自己也不好意思找你了。 你不是我的谁，你没必要对我好。 不要对我好，我会害怕。 我害怕你也对我反感了。 但是我很想对你说，救命，我很需要你。 你可以来抱抱我吗？？ 我很痛。

Everyone can say that i'm happy but you can't........!!!!!!! (i''m reconsidering yesterday until i saw it this morning...) do you know i'm waiting you since you told me break.... (pls don't ask for reunite because i had made my decision) what is your mood while you type this?????? T.T no dare to tell i'm sad and crying cos you will leave me immediatelly. just as what you said to me. everyone couldn't know me,but you can't..... you want me to cry in front of you and demand reunite,is that only call as i'm sad.